
[Not knowing where else to go, Ivan ends up in the tea room again. He finds a table far away from the door and puts his head in his hands, trying not to draw attention to himself. But he feels so tired and so sick--Marie had been so upset with what they'd found at the gates to the Red Queen's Timeshare that he hadn't had a chance to really stop and let himself feel as upset as he was over it. He had to be the strong one, and then stay in his right mind afterward to report what they'd found.
Still, he feels like he owes it to the others, somehow, to stay quiet and collected. He didn't really know the victims, so how does he have the right to be saddened? But he keeps thinking about how Ferim and Akira will both be missing from the House of Hearts, and how much more grim it's going to feel to try and sleep with that knowledge. So here he is, stewing.
He barely even hears when someone approaches, and starts to stand without thinking or looking, his head still bowed to his chest.]
Sorry--I have to--
[How can anyone want to be around him? He'll just bring everyone down. He's always being such a burden.]